Few of bits of housekeeping on this glorious almost springtime day.
One, I decided I like suspense novels, so I’ve been having a lot of fun lately shopping for suspense books.
Two, I’ve been doing random TBRs this year, where I pick my TBR out of themed jars, and that actually hasn’t been a disaster. I don’t always stick to it, but it’s fun, and it keeps me from having decision paralysis over what to read all the time.
Three, I actually am still working on the musical project. I have my plot split up into two acts and 46 musical numbers. I decided to go with a singing only format to cut down on the amount of dialogue and such that I would need to write, since this is just for fun. I can add setting details in between songs later, if I decide to do such a thing. But I’m officially in the songwriting portion of the project. 😀
Four, you may or may not know, but I started blogging at the end of July 2012. I wanted a way to keep myself motivated, hold myself accountable, and make connections with other writers.
Now, almost nine years later! I have a record of my ups and downs, some wins, some failures. Mostly, though, I have a record of all my stress.
Being the analytical person that I am, I’ve tried to figure out all the things that caused my writing meltdown at the end of 2018. Self-publishing didn’t help. Blogging about writing and paying that much attention to my progress and process and what other writers were doing didn’t help. It also didn’t help to see people struggling all the time. And I’ve seen a lot of people quit over the years.
I made writing my entire life, and when that started to fall apart, it felt like the roof of my life was crashing down on top of me.
Some people thrive in creative pursuits by blogging and vlogging every step of the way. I don’t. It just gave my OCD something to feast on, and I let it happen because I thought I was helping myself and being “productive.”
I loved talking about writing, but blogging about it put me too much in my head.
I’ve been making videos for almost four years, and I noticed my lackluster communication skills have actually helped me not be so stuck in my head all the time. Being forced to look at myself and talk about things keeps me from ruminating so much, and it makes it really obvious when I’m repeating myself or stuck on a loop.
I still love blogging, but I’m taking an extended break from it to see if it’s something I still want to do, and if it is, how to make it work without it aggravating my tendencies to overthink, overanalyze, and seek validation.
That said, if I do come back to blogging, it won’t be here. This blog is like a time capsule, and I love it, but I think I want to do something different in the future. So, this is the last update on KrystalSquared.net. I’m thinking of having some kind of website for project updates and basic information, but it won’t happen over here.
Feel free to reach out if you want to chat. I’m not falling off the internet. We’re just making some changes.
Thanks for everything! See you around! 💜