Facts of Life,  Indie Author Life,  Motivation,  Work-In-Progress

Changing Projects For The 900th Time :D

Hi! (waves)

So, I wanted to talk about why I changed projects. Again. For the 900th time. πŸ˜€

Exciting things happen in the “Phantom Silence” project, and I could make myself write it, but I don’t like “making” myself write, especially since I don’t have to.

I wanted to write, so that wasn’t the problem. I was just all kinds of unmotivated, and nothing was helping. Every time I opened my project, I was bored, so I was like, “why don’t I just have a dead body show up?” But it’s like, the story doesn’t need a dead body. I actually had a dead body in my mental outline. But it makes no sense. There’s no logical reason for it to be there. No one has a motive to kill that person, so the body was only showing up because I was bored.

I talked to my sister about being bored, and she’s like, “so have something exciting happen.” Sure, it’s my story, I can do whatever I want, but here’s how I think: I’m Dr. Frankenstein, cooking stuff up in the lab. Once I bring these monsters to life, they’re the sum of whatever I put into them. I can’t just add pieces. They’ll fall off! And not only is that disgusting imagery, they don’t fit. Also, my sister said that I didn’t sound excited about this story when I talked about it. O.O

So. I started thinking some time last month that maybe I just wanted something bloody. However, that’s not quite it either. I had a project where some guy gets his head cut off in the first chapter, but it’s like, I don’t care about that dude! And my character isn’t invested in it. She’s just going through the motions. It doesn’t cause her any turmoil. I need turmoil! I want the death to hurt someone I care about! Someone doesn’t have to die in chapter one, of course. Nothing needs to explode. I just need something that bleeds at some point and someone to cry super hard about it when it happens. That’s all. ^_^

“Phantom Silence” has no blood-related turmoil unless I force it in. It has a few creepy moments, sure, but it’s not that kind of story. STILL, that isn’t the entire problem. The third piece of the puzzle that caused me to want to jump ship is that the character is a good person, and I’m just not in the mood for that right now. Like it’s boring me into a creative coma.

That said, I don’t mind a story with nothing creepy, no blood, and a nice, upstanding protagonist, but currently, the character needs to be a hot mess in some way or I just can’t. It’s the same issue I had with Project “Pinewood Falls.” She’s such a good person, and that is boring to me right now. The character doesn’t need to have questionable morals, but at the very least, I want their life to be kind of awful. ^_^

I do want to write “Phantom Silence” — and “Pinewood” — at some point. I’m just not motivated right now. And since I have other options that I am motivated to write, why not work on one of those?

Of course, I could change any of these projects to fit my mood, but to do that, I have to put the idea back in the pot, melt the monster down, and reshape it. That’s fine, but it’s not getting written right now if I have to do that. Also, there are times when I’m totally in the mood for a slower paced story with no blood. So, why risk ruining a perfectly good idea when I can just set it aside until it fits what I want? Exactly. πŸ˜€

Setting this story aside wasn’t easy. It never is. It might be two years or more before I get back to it since I’m on a mission to rewrite the stories that are haunting me, minus the one that’s probably a dud. Thing is, I’m okay with that. So, really, I should have changed projects sooner! There’s no benefit of “powering through” when it’s this unnecessary. I’m just delaying the inevitable.

In any case, I’ve been working on the other project for a few weeks now and recently passed 15k. I’ll chat about that next week. ^_^

Okay, off to stick my head in the sand. πŸ˜›


  • Tonja Drecker

    Too bad we can’t just leave those dead bodies laying around πŸ˜‰ It’s hard to write when you’re not feeling it, but that can mean that something in the story isn’t right, either. (I hate to say that). I had a stage like that in one of my stories once, asked a CP to read it and see if it was just my mood or something else. Turns out the last scenes were as boring as I felt. So, I had to rethink and twist things a bit. BUT sometimes just shifting gears to a different WIP is all it takes too. Just don’t pressure yourself. That always seems to kill the muse πŸ˜‰

    • Krystal Jane

      Lol! This is true. Sometimes it’s not just our mood. Another reason to set it aside. Haha. I had a story in 2012 where the middle was boring me, and my beta couldn’t tell if it just had to be boring because it was information heavy or if I needed to rewrite it in a more interesting way. Obviously we always need to rewrite. No excuses!

    • Krystal Jane

      Lol! I think I have a pretty solid game plan in place, so hopefully, I won’t bounce around 90 times again for a while.

  • Jodi Perkins (@Perkjo)

    “Every time I opened my project, I was bored, so I was like, ‘why don’t I just have a dead body show up?’ Hahaha! #WritersLife

    “There’s no benefit of powering through”…truth! Soon I’ll be stuck powering through Book 3 of Chasing Echoes when I’d MUCH rather work on something else (Apathetics). It sucks. I feel like I’m in some kind of self-inflicted purgatory. But I’ve sort of come to terms with it. Facebook shared a memory with me of when I finished an oil painting for a comic book cover (“Johnny the Homicidal Maniac”), and I remember how much I had to force myself to keep working on that painting when I SO wasn’t into it. Had I not been commissioned to paint it, I would have never chosen that project. But now I’m so glad I have it in my portfolio (so to speak) because it’s fun and different, compared to the other things I’ve painted. So maybe forcing yourself to plow through a project once in awhile isn’t the worst thing. Well…until you start throwing dead bodies in there just to entertain yourself…at that point it’s probably time to set it aside for a bit.

    • Krystal Jane

      Painting for pay is a good reason to work on something. What a crazy name for a painting though! ^_^ Sometimes I write faster when there’s another project chasing me. It can be motivating. Of course, the benefit of powering through the series is that it’ll be done and the world will be your oyster! There are pearls on the other side! πŸ˜€

  • Tyrean Martinson

    All of this sounds so familiar because … I just found my new love-this-hot-mess project, then had to rein in my excitement with specific goals so I somehow keep the momentum going. My main character in the September project (not the actual title) is definitely a hot mess. The “other” character is less messy (I may have to throw something more at him), but he definitely has at least one huge problem (main character).
    So far, mwahaha.
    I mean, ahem, they are having enough trouble to keep me interested but I might allow them to be happy later.
    Best wishes on writing this week and beyond!

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