It’s anniversary month here at The Narcissistic Rose! Not only is my blog 7 years old!! But I also tag July as the month I finished my very first novel. I don’t actually remember when I finished this book, and I didn’t bother to put a date anywhere in it, but July is the official month for simplicity’s sake. So when it comes around, I like to celebrate!
Last year, unbeknownst to the general public, I wrote FIVE different anniversary posts before settling on the one I posted in which I did a blurb reveal for HOUSE OF FALLING EMBERS. Truth be told, I was in a BAD mood this time last year, and my mood was ALL over the place. All in all, aside from one particularly ranty post, they weren’t all that bad. I think not posting them was more of a reflection of my bad mood than the content.
Originally, I was going to talk about each post and summarize what they were about, but I was basically talking about the same thing in every post, just in different ways: I was struggling to write, and I was trying to understand why. I’ve come to the conclusion that it doesn’t matter why. Yeah, I figured things out. I’ve been stressed in general, and we’re whole people, and as much as we try to compartmentalize things, stressors in one area do affect seemingly unrelated areas. Yada, yada. But it doesn’t matter, because regardless of what is bothering me and what can or cannot be done about it, I still have to figure out how to write through it in the meantime.
Sometimes, I’m amazed that I’m still blogging after 7 years. With the kind of mood swings I have, how have I not torn this thing down yet?
In any case, last week, I talked about how I was having confidence issues for the gazillionth time this year, so I dug out a recording I had on my phone from a Q&A panel at a writing conference from two years ago. After listening to that, I saw all these other files that are only on my computer because my phone deleted random stuff during one of its updates last year. I ended up finding three songs that never made it into my lyric notebook, and I don’t know why this was so exciting to me, but I was SO excited.
One of the songs, called “Falling,” was for WINTER’S SIREN. It’s part of the opera they’re performing, and it’s a solo piece sung by the male lead that probably wouldn’t have made it into the book even if I hadn’t forgotten about it, but it didn’t even make it into my notes! The guy has such a beautiful baritone, though, and I’m so happy to be reacquainted with his song. ^_^
Another song was for WHISPER, written around 4.5 years ago, and I could almost kick myself, because it’s so perfect. It’s called “Whisper” because I never gave it a title. About two and a half years ago, I was working on the music side of the song, which I also had recorded, and it sounded pretty good actually! I’m not very good at writing music, and I was even more surprised that I could still figure out what I did. Luckily, my low skills and love of minor keys made it relatively easy to figure out. I can’t believe I didn’t write the notes down at the time, but I’m remedying that now.
The last song, called “Fade,” was for, get this, freaking DISCORD, my beautiful shelved siren story. This was from 5.5 years ago! The lyrics were written before I changed the story and ruined it, and after seeing the original vibe for this, I’m finally on board with rewriting it, so we’ll see what happens as the months progress. ^_^
In any case, this entire celebration is basically just me talking about some lost song lyrics that I recovered and got way too excited about, so I wanted to share. Music, after all, inspires me to write, including some of my own music, which makes sense. 😀
In writing news, things continue to drag, but I’m over 10k now, so that’s great.