Is anyone doing NaNoWriMo this year? National Novel Writing Month comes with a lot of excitement and pep talks and activities, and it makes for great writing fuel, but I haven’t gotten the timing right in years.
Before I get into that, though, quick writing update since it’s kind of relevant, I’m still working on the same story I was working on last time I talked about writing. The working title is still “Winter” and it just so happens to be a rewrite of the story I wrote for NaNo 2013.
I’ve only done NaNo proper a handful of times. I signed up in 2011 and somehow forgot to participate. In 2012, I was working on a hot mess of a story and gave up trying to win around 15k words in when I hit a wall and decided to go back to the beginning and rewrite everything, which was super fun. >.<
In 2013, I dragged myself over the finish line and won NaNo with around 53k words. I wrote a little bit more in December before quitting the story, and NaNo is probably the only reason I made it as far as I did, though rather that’s a good thing or not since I had to scrap everything is up for debate. In 2014, I won NaNo again with 55k on another story that needs to be rewritten. I don’t blame NaNo for these wrecks. I can be quite mental at the beginning stages of any project, and with that year’s project, I was a special kind of mental and didn’t need to be working on anything. The story got done in December, I think, with no problems because I had a full outline going into it, but I needed to not be writing, because my lack of focus meant another rewrite from scratch would be in order.
I’ve mentioned before that I can be an incredibly slow starter. I’m not always, but I’m often am, and that can make NaNoWriMo hard to swing, because I can’t actually predict how neurotic I’m going to be going into a project.
In 2015, I wasn’t in the mood, so I didn’t force it, and gave up a week or two or less into the month. I started a project in 2016, but I ending up spending half the month editing another book. Then I needed a break in 2017, and needed another break in 2018.
I’m thinking about participating this year, even though I wouldn’t be starting a new story from scratch. I was stalled on my story for a bit (being mental again) and thought I could use NaNo energy as fuel to get moving again. The problem wasn’t with my story. As in, if I tried to write or made myself write a sentence or two, it was no problem at all. The problem was only in getting me to do it in the first place.
I did talk through the issues and was able to get the story moving again, and of course, I don’t want to sit around and wait for NaNo to write, so once again, the timing isn’t good. BUT depending on what my word count is going into November, I might hop on and see if it motivates me to get some writing done. I really want this story done by the end of the year. I have too many other stories I want to write, and I got three new ideas last week, and one of them is actually really good, so it’s like…GET MOVING! Haha.
I recently found something I wrote from 2013 in which I said I didn’t care if I was ever published. I just wanted to keep writing because it brings me joy. 🙂 Isn’t that a nice thing to say to myself? I think it’s easy to lose sight of why I write, and why I write the stories I write. Sometimes, when things aren’t easy, it’s hard to keep going, and I never remember how I got through it the last time.
It’s getting close to time to make macro goals for next year, and I want to publish a book next year, and I want it to be the one I’m working on. That’s the plan, but it’s hard to make that decision this early in the story. At the same time, I made publishing decisions early with the last three books I published before they were even close to done. I know why I’m scared, but the deeper I get into the project, the less scared I get. It’s like, I can see how the story is coming together, and it’s making me less anxious about the things I’ve been anxious about. I admire when other writers take risks, so it makes sense that I have to take some risks as well.
What’s that quote: if you’re not growing you’re dying? Something like that. 🙂
On a random note: I got my new planner in the mail last week, and it’s so perfect! I can’t wait. ^_^