So, I have some thoughts I wanted to chat about today. Last month, just a couple of weeks ago, I had a moment. I was tired. I was cold. I didn’t want to edit. I didn’t even want to write anymore.
This wasn’t brought on by anything in particular. Editing was going well. The sky didn’t fall on me. Side effect of being burnt out? As I was sitting there, feeling so sad about nothing, I told myself that I didn’t want to write anymore. And per usual, when this happens, I replied, “So don’t.”
I gave myself permission to do nothing. No editing. Nothing productive. The next afternoon, no joke, I felt like editing again. I felt like brainstorming my next project. I was excited about writing!
I think I had put too much pressure on myself. I kept telling myself, “You HAVE to have this done early. You HAVE to publish two books a year. You HAVE to write three books a year. You’re not allowed to relax. Everything that needs to be done has to be done RIGHT NOW.” And finally, I just had a meltdown.
Like, literally, no one is chasing me. I DON’T have to have a book done by any specific date. I DON’T have to publish a set number of books a year. I DON’T have to write a set number of books a year. If I want to take all week to do three things, I can do that! I can do whatever I want. I don’t even have to pay my bills. Now, obviously, there are consequences for not paying the electric bill, so I do want to pay that, but I don’t have to put so much pressure on myself about writing. It’s not good for my brain, stress level, or muse. In fact, it’s destructive.
I think it directly led to me freaking out, once again, about what to write next. But all this freaking out reminded me of something. When I was working on “The Puppet Box,” all I wanted to do was work on something else. This has happened to me several times over the years. It doesn’t mean there’s anything wrong with the project. It just means I’m not excited enough about it to write it right now. Excitement goes a long way with me. I need that.
I had previously decided to work on my Top Secret Duology. While I was having the time of my life brainstorming it, I started thinking too much – the bane of my existence. I started thinking, “do you really want to do three retellings in a row? what if this doesn’t work out? what if it isn’t ready? you’re way too excited about it.”
And in true me fashion, I set the project aside to work on something else. Now, honestly, this something else did need some work, and I do really want to write everything. I often string several stories around my neck and choke myself with them. Thing is, I don’t really want to write everything RIGHT NOW.
Finally, after taking the pressure off to do fifty million things at once, I talked to myself, because I’m cool and sane like that, and I went through each of the ideas on my plate. There was one that I was clearly way more excited about. It actually made me sad to push it back, and I didn’t feel that way about the others. Furthermore, it doesn’t matter why I’m not settled on the others. The fact that I’m not settled is reason enough not to work on any of them right now. In all actuality, the problem is probably that they’re just not quite ready yet. It doesn’t mean anything is wrong. And I need to stop thinking like that.
So, I have a project lined up, officially. For now, it is called Top Secret Duology – which I’ve been calling it for months now. LOL! Of course, there are two Top Secret Duologies, but I know which one I’m talking about. 😛
So before this post gets too long, I have a cover and blurb to reveal!! 😀
Jade has been hearing voices since she was five. No, not voices. One voice.
After her twin brother is appointed vice president of their father’s company at the old age of twenty-two, the family starts falling apart. Her parents hate each other. Her brother is stressed. His girlfriend is a gold-digger if Jade’s ever seen one. And worse yet, it turns out she isn’t crazy—the voice in her head is real.
If she ignores it, it’ll drive her off a cliff, like it has done to every single woman on her father’s side for over 1000 years. If she listens, she’s told something terrible will happen.
The choice should be simple.
Full Wrap Around
Release Date: April 3, 2018
Cover by NajlaQamberDesigns