Since I’m cataloging my writing journey here on The Narcissistic Rose, today I’m going to make an announcement about such journey. ^_^
It happened on a Friday. September 9th, 2016. I was going about my day (as people do), and an idea for a project just hit me, it would seem, quite suddenly and out of nowhere. Not a novel project – a smaller project. I wanted to publish it myself, and I was so insanely excited. I can’t really even explain why I wanted to go the indie route with this, other than a wild seed of some kind must have been planted in my head some time ago, because plants don’t grow out of nothing!
At the tail end of last year, I felt like a major change was coming with my writing. Now naturally, I’m not psychic enough (haha) that I knew what it was at the time. I just felt like exciting things were on the horizon. ^_^
For one thing, I finally stopped fighting with myself about what to write, and that has been great! For another thing…well, let’s get into that. 🙂
When I dived into research-land, my intention was to get some DIY help for my small project and find a few independent presses that might work for “No Rest for the Wicked.” At the time I made this decision, I was actually still planning on sending queries out to agents for “The Puppet Box” whenever that was ready. So, when I say it happened really fast, it really feels that way. Like overnight.
For the record, I’m not against querying or independent presses. I’ve just changed my mind. My stories don’t have to see the light of day for me to be happy. I want to put them out there because I love (most of) them, and I can. And more importantly, I want to.
I’ve looked at small presses before, and I’ve poked around self-publishing before (though that’s mostly just consisted of me spying on people). But I’ve never done it with the intention of following through on anything. Until this time, that is.
What happened is that the deeper into research I got, the more I started thinking and dreaming about building up my very own DIY publishing empire!! Haha, but really, it was exciting. I started thinking about cover designs and formatting for not just my small project, but also my recently drafted novel, and I couldn’t turn the wheels off once they started spinning in that direction. To help speed up the decision-making process and to also get some help and direction in general, I bugged a few fantastic people, and I have to say, they really are fabulous, because everyone has been so incredibly helpful and supportive. ^_^
So, let’s get really real for a second. One of the reasons I didn’t want to go the indie author path was because I felt like doing so would mean I was giving up on my writing dream. That said, this was the easiest thing to get over, because I honestly don’t feel like I’m giving up on it at all. If anything, I feel like I get closer to it every day.
So moving on to the more current reasons: it seemed like a lot of freaking work, for one. And two, I never thought I would be capable of marketing my work.
Then I started reading a ton of stuff about how marketing is falling on the author a lot nowadays anyway. And I started to feel really squidgy and nauseous.
But knowledge is power, as they say, whoever they are, probably aliens. And while I still feel overwhelmed about the marketing aspect, I don’t feel squidgy or overwhelmed enough not to try. And to be honest, I don’t even know why it made me nervous in the first place. I’m the kind of person who has no problem emailing and calling and tweeting complete strangers when a reason strikes. So, I’m guessing it was just some kind of mental block.
As with most DIY endeavors, there are upfront costs, like editing, and there is no guarantee that I’ll have any kind of return on even $25 dollars of investment – though it will make my taxes a lot more fun. But to put things in perspective, it’s really not that much, and I think it’s worth it. 😀
We do live in an age of many options, and we need to love the trail we’re taking if we’re going to make it. For a long time, I felt like I needed the validation that comes with an agent believing in your work or a company wanting to publish your work. Of course there is nothing wrong with wanting validation, I still hope to feel validated one day, but we don’t need someone else’s approval to get our work out there. For me, it’s extremely exciting that I can make this happen and know that it will actually be good, entertaining work. For someone else, this is not appealing at all.
There’s always the possibility that my book will end up buried under a bunch of other books and no one will ever see it. But I know I can do this, and more importantly, I want to do this. So, if anyone wants to volunteer to help me out come marketing time – because I’m still freaking out over it some – I’d really appreciate it! ^_^