Per Usual…

Whenever I’m drafting I always pick a project or two to battle it out for the role of my next project. And every time I do this, a random story comes out of the blue and takes over and I end up writing that instead. Yep. Some things never change.

Meanwhile, I can finally say that I’m on track to finish “Inescapable” by the end of the month! But dude, the road has been peppered with fun crisis after fun crisis. 😛 It’s also been hard to concentrate because I have issues, and they flare up on the regular, but I think I’m doing pretty well for the most part. It’s really nice to be so close to finishing something after fumbling around for a year. That helps the old mood a lot. 🙂

On a random note: Did you know that hamsters can get colds? My hamster had a cold last week. He was sneezing and wiping his nose. It was so cute and sad.

Anyway, I sneaked and did a tiny bit of editing on Sunday. I couldn’t do anything too major without rereading everything from the beginning, but you know how layers develop in a story as you’re writing it? ^_^ So I dashed through a few scenes and tweaked them a little bit, just to lay some better framework for the actual editing round. I couldn’t stand it. Even though I wrote it down, I still had it in my head that I might forget or miss a scene I needed to tweak.

But it was good. I was stalled on a scene. I couldn’t remember why I had the scene in my outline, because the outline just hits the points I want to cover. Sometimes when this happens, editing helps me unglue the stuck parts of my brain. So when I got back to the scene, it finally started to make some sense. I almost skipped it. I have skipped scenes before when I’ve been stuck, but I don’t do that very often. Just a couple of times between everything I’ve ever worked on.

I finished the outline nearly six weeks ago, so who knows what I was thinking. I finished it in this quick burst of inspiration – the kind that has you scribbling furiously. 🙂 I feel like I should have finished this story last month, but it’s no big deal. I’m not in any kind of hurry.

It’s funny how we forget that we struggle sometimes. I told my critique buddy the other week about this story I wrote in 2012. If you had asked me a month ago how the story went, I would have told you that I breezed through it! And I really thought I had. But recently, I dove into the archives of this blog looking for something from an earlier post (because, hey, if nothing else, this blog has been a great resource for myself! ^_^), and while I was in said archives, I came across some posts about that story, and ohmygosh, talking about struggling!

From the very beginning. I wrote the first chapter, and then proceeded to freak out about something relatively minor for a MONTH! Then, all the way through the process I doubted and cried and doubted again, pushing through, ultimately, because I loved it so freaking much. And now, three and a half years later, I would have sworn, outside of that initial first freak out, that I had no more struggles until the end.

And the craziest part is, I never forgot about this scene that I had gotten completely stuck on. I knew I needed a scene between two chapters in my outline, but I had no idea what to do. I freaked out first, naturally. Then I stared at the blank space and asked myself what to do. And the answer was clear: “Ask Caroline.” (My MC) So I did, and Caroline wanted to go for a walk. So we went for a walk and crazy stuff happened and it was awesome! I did a very similar thing on Sunday with my current project. Again, the answer was clear: get to the temple. So I did, and the rest took care of itself. It wasn’t crazy awesome, but a seed was planted, and that was cool. 🙂

Writing is a labor of love. ^_^

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8 Responses to Per Usual…

  1. It’s funny how past writing projects seems so dandy and easy after a while, huh? But that’s why I have a blog. So I can go back and read and shake my head at myself. It wasn’t easy then! You were a baby, Sunflower! You knew nothing!

    So you didn’t forget about the scene, but you forgot why you had it in the outline? Have you ever read something of yours while editing or whatever and totally forgotten that you wrote something? You did. It’s right there. Nobody else wrote it. But when did you write it? And why? Happens to me at least once a project.

    You’re on a roll! I’m reading something right now for background for Ursula.

    • Lol! I know, right! I always think I’m figuring stuff out, but it’s like, nope, still don’t know anything. Lol! I’ve totally forgotten about something I wrote! It’s so crazy. Sometimes it’s like, “Oh, no, this needs to go,” but other times it’s like finding treasure. 😀

      Ursula is such a great name for the kind of person you’ve described! ^_^

  2. Yay, I’m so happy you’re almost done drafting! This story sounds so much fun and so creative, I can’t wait to see how it turns out! Writing definitely is a wild ride 😉 And yeah, sometimes when you get stuck, listening to your MC is always the best route. It’s their story after all!

    • ^_^ It is fun, if nothing else. Lol! My characters have yet to steer me wrong. The little monsters always have something to say. I love them so much! ^_^

  3. I was totally lame and not on the blogosphere last week, but I’m happy to come back and see you’re making progress. (Poor hamster.) Keep at it! I’m supposed to be handing a draft off to my primary editor at the end of the month as well, and it’s going nicely…when I can find time to write. You know what hosting out-of-town family is like? And then toss a sick baby into the mix, and then get sick yourself. (Not sniffles and a short dependence on medicine, but full-on stuck-in-bed, sleep the day away, can’t think straight kind of sickness.) So anyway, I’ll stop rambling and drop a whole pile of cheese so you can keep at it without having to get up to snack.

    • Yikes! I’m glad you’re feeling better! And baby, too! Will totally take the cheese. ^_^ And I’m glad to hear that your project is going well. I hope you get great notes back from your editor!

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