Whenever I’m drafting I always pick a project or two to battle it out for the role of my next project. And every time I do this, a random story comes out of the blue and takes over and I end up writing that instead. Yep. Some things never change.
Meanwhile, I can finally say that I’m on track to finish “Inescapable” by the end of the month! But dude, the road has been peppered with fun crisis after fun crisis. 😛 It’s also been hard to concentrate because I have issues, and they flare up on the regular, but I think I’m doing pretty well for the most part. It’s really nice to be so close to finishing something after fumbling around for a year. That helps the old mood a lot. 🙂
On a random note: Did you know that hamsters can get colds? My hamster had a cold last week. He was sneezing and wiping his nose. It was so cute and sad.
Anyway, I sneaked and did a tiny bit of editing on Sunday. I couldn’t do anything too major without rereading everything from the beginning, but you know how layers develop in a story as you’re writing it? ^_^ So I dashed through a few scenes and tweaked them a little bit, just to lay some better framework for the actual editing round. I couldn’t stand it. Even though I wrote it down, I still had it in my head that I might forget or miss a scene I needed to tweak.
But it was good. I was stalled on a scene. I couldn’t remember why I had the scene in my outline, because the outline just hits the points I want to cover. Sometimes when this happens, editing helps me unglue the stuck parts of my brain. So when I got back to the scene, it finally started to make some sense. I almost skipped it. I have skipped scenes before when I’ve been stuck, but I don’t do that very often. Just a couple of times between everything I’ve ever worked on.
I finished the outline nearly six weeks ago, so who knows what I was thinking. I finished it in this quick burst of inspiration – the kind that has you scribbling furiously. 🙂 I feel like I should have finished this story last month, but it’s no big deal. I’m not in any kind of hurry.
It’s funny how we forget that we struggle sometimes. I told my critique buddy the other week about this story I wrote in 2012. If you had asked me a month ago how the story went, I would have told you that I breezed through it! And I really thought I had. But recently, I dove into the archives of this blog looking for something from an earlier post (because, hey, if nothing else, this blog has been a great resource for myself! ^_^), and while I was in said archives, I came across some posts about that story, and ohmygosh, talking about struggling!
From the very beginning. I wrote the first chapter, and then proceeded to freak out about something relatively minor for a MONTH! Then, all the way through the process I doubted and cried and doubted again, pushing through, ultimately, because I loved it so freaking much. And now, three and a half years later, I would have sworn, outside of that initial first freak out, that I had no more struggles until the end.
And the craziest part is, I never forgot about this scene that I had gotten completely stuck on. I knew I needed a scene between two chapters in my outline, but I had no idea what to do. I freaked out first, naturally. Then I stared at the blank space and asked myself what to do. And the answer was clear: “Ask Caroline.” (My MC) So I did, and Caroline wanted to go for a walk. So we went for a walk and crazy stuff happened and it was awesome! I did a very similar thing on Sunday with my current project. Again, the answer was clear: get to the temple. So I did, and the rest took care of itself. It wasn’t crazy awesome, but a seed was planted, and that was cool. 🙂
Writing is a labor of love. ^_^