Last weekend, I decided to go through my email archives to see if I could find the story notes my first writing buddy sent me on a story I wrote back in 2008. This I do instead of writing. Lol! I was trying to remember something random she said about a side character.
I ended up combing through quite a few of her notes and reading through parts of story, and I started feeling agitated by how bad it was. Then I get to a scene where this girl and guy kiss for the first time – not the first time she kissed someone in the book – I skipped over that scene originally, but it’s actually one of the few scenes I can read from that story without cringing. I was surprised to find I still like it! She commented: “yay!” on that one (Lol!), and the comments she made on this second one were: “OMG…this scene is SO cute!” So, I double back and take a closer look at it.
And I hate it. I hate it now, and I’m pretty sure I hated it when I wrote it. It’s fine and whatever. It’s exactly what she said – it’s cute – almost too cute. But as I read over it, I thought to myself, “I was a very different person in 2008.” Not in a terrible way. Just different. Lol!
Out of curiosity, I jumped to 2011, which was the next time I wrote anything, and browsed through parts of that story as well. It still wasn’t good, but it was much better than the 2008 story – less cringing. Then I moved to 2013 and took a peek into all of those stories, skipping 2012, because I already think that story is great. (Ha,ha) I got pretty wrapped up in my little field trip actually. Three stories that year! Like a rock-star. 😛 However, I didn’t finish one of them. And as I was reading through that particular story, I don’t know, I just started thinking about how good it is and how I couldn’t believe I didn’t finish it.
I always get a kick of out it when I can get lost and wrapped up in parts of my own story. ^_^
This is what happens, of course, when you only read the good parts of a story. 😉 Because that story is not good, and I do know why I didn’t finish. (Though now I kind of want to finish it and try to fix it). It’s so well-written, and after skimming over it, the confidence I felt slipping away from me while I browsed the 2008 story was restored. I’ll have to remember this the next time I’m down. Just reread some older stuff (but not too old!) to show myself proof that I really am a good writer. ^_^
Even when I’m being critical of myself, I can’t argue with cold hard truth! Lol!
Anywho, I thought I’d do a mini story update while I’m here. ^_^ I’m still writing at some crazy speed. No idea why, but you know I’ll take it! I’m getting into the parts of the story where the truly crazy stuff starts to happen! 😀 Plus, twice now I’ve done some pretty awesome foreshadowing without realizing it. I thought I may have been getting carried away with the world building once, but I was like, I may not be if I’m going to trust my brain in any capacity, so I stopped stressing over it, and it turned out to be a really good thing! I had run out of outline, so I’m surprised I kept writing, really.
Don’t you love it when you do amazing things by accident? I also unintentionally creeped myself out pretty bad over some description of foliage. Don’t ask. It’s not creepy on purpose. It’s just the thought of it…makes my skin crawl even now.
In other good news: one of the crazy ideas in my plot bunny field is finally starting to make sense! Such a crazy ending, too. More good choices for me to pick from when this draft is done. ^^ And I’ve also gotten my voice back finally after being sick for over a week! My tree got up and decorated over the weekend, too, which is a tad late for me, but it’s up with two different colored lights. I thought it would look like a snow cone this way. It does not, but I really like it. It’s kind of funky. ^^ I also made an interesting looking gingerbread house for the first time. Took me a couple of hours. Not great at it, but now I can say I’ve made one. 🙂
I’m going to bring it into work next week and share it. ^_^