It’s my birthday month, so it’s always the time of year I start re-evaluating my goals. 😀
Last report wordcount + chapter count:
Phantom Silence = 4907 new words out of 21282 total words, Chapter 13
Current report WC + CC:
Phantom Silence = 0 new words this month out of 21282 total words, Chapter 13
“Untitled Paranormal” = 14903 words, Chapter 6
Random Idea: about 5k
-I play around with super jumbled ideas sometimes to suss out the plot holes and see if there’s any hope. This is the second time I’ve done this for this idea. It’s very dark and lots of fun, but it’s not making any sense yet.
*I’m not going to get into too much detail on the project I’m working on – I’m just going to say the basics: it does have a title, and it’s inspired by a combination of something I wrote 7 years ago and a new idea that came to me in December that wasn’t working. Meshing the two concepts together seems to have fixed the problems I had with the both of them. We’ll see what comes out. I’m writing without any kind of an outline for the first time in seven years. 🙂 But clearly things aren’t going just too bad. I’m not against outlines all of a sudden, but we never know what will happen! I just need to try something different. Things have been bumpy for me lately.
WIP Issues This Month:
I’m not sure. Around the beginning of the month, I had what I can only describe as a “crazy” moment, in which I decided to shelve everything I have ever written – just let it all go. Around the middle of the month, I had an attack of doubt. Right on time, and for once I saw it for myself before I freaked out too, too much. Normal new story jitters. Boo.
The biggest issue I’ve been having is whether or not to continue with “Phantom Silence.” I swear I meant to work on it! It’s seriously still pulled up on my computer, ready to go. All I can say for myself is: I just don’t feel like it’s better than everything else I’ve written. More like, just as good as everything I usually write. And earlier this month I decided that the best I can do just isn’t freaking good enough, which is why I shelved everything. I feel attached to this idea though, so I’m basically just sitting on it like it’s an egg or something. It’s like, I feel obligated, like I might as well write it because it’s completely outlined and all I would have to do to finish it is connect the dots to the end. At the same time, I think if I had to think about what to write, I would trash it. Or start over. I realize, too, that I’m being completely crazy, shelving all my crap and over-analyzing everything, but it is what it is.
What I learned this month in writing:
1* The last time I wrote without an outline, I also didn’t have a plan. Naturally, I blamed not having an outline on that story being crap when I finished. Live and learn. This time I have a plan, albeit a loose one. But a plan is a plan! ^_^
2* It doesn’t matter what anyone else is doing or thinks about what I’m doing. All that matters is that I keep writing and keep moving forward.
3* It seems I need a constant reminder that’s it’s okay not to write everyday. I don’t mind. 🙂
What distracted me this month while writing:
Nothing, really. I decided that it was a good idea to get up before the crack of dawn so I have time to write before work. I’ve done this before, but I stopped after I finished the story. This time I want to keep it as my new schedule, period. It frees up my evenings, and I love it, but the adjustment has been…an adjustment. My body has been on nights for a very long time, but it’s been a lot easier to get out of bed in the morning than I thought it would be. Going to bed before midnight has been the hardest. But you know, these things take time!
Goal for next month:
Not making any goals. I just want to keep writing and stop freaking out. 🙂
Last 200 words:
Skipping. I’m rather a mother bear over this story right now.