#WIPMarathon Report #16 (May)

MAY!! ^_^
It’s my birthday month, so it’s always the time of year I start re-evaluating my goals. ๐Ÿ˜€

Last report wordcount + chapter count:
Phantom Silence = 4907 new words out of 21282 total words, Chapter 13

Current report WC + CC:
Phantom Silence = 0 new words this month out of 21282 total words, Chapter 13
“Untitled Paranormal”ย = 14903 words, Chapter 6
Random Idea: about 5k
-I play around with super jumbled ideasย sometimes to suss out the plot holes and see if there’s any hope.ย This is the second time I’ve done this for this idea. It’s very dark and lots of fun, but it’s not making any sense yet.

*I’m not going to get into too much detail on the project I’m working on – I’m just going to say the basics: it does have a title, and it’s inspired by a combination of something I wrote 7 years ago and a new idea that came to me in December that wasn’t working. Meshing the two concepts together seems to have fixed the problems I had with the both of them. We’ll see what comes out. I’m writing without any kind of an outline for the first time in seven years. ๐Ÿ™‚ But clearly things aren’t going just too bad. I’m not against outlines all of a sudden, but we never know what will happen! I just need to try something different. Things have been bumpy for me lately.

WIP Issues This Month:
I’m not sure. Around the beginning of the month, I had what I can only describe as a “crazy” moment, in which I decided to shelve everything I have ever written – just let it all go. Around the middle of the month, I had an attack of doubt. Right on time, and for once I saw it for myself before I freaked out too, too much. Normal new story jitters. Boo.

The biggest issue I’ve been having is whether or not to continue with “Phantom Silence.” I swear I meant to work on it! It’s seriously still pulled up on my computer, ready to go. All I can say for myself is: I just don’t feel like it’s better than everything else I’ve written. More like, just as good as everything I usually write. And earlier this month I decided that the best I can do just isn’t freaking good enough, which is why I shelved everything. I feel attached to this idea though, so I’m basically just sitting on it like it’s an egg or something. It’s like, I feel obligated, like I might as well write it because it’s completely outlined and all I would have to do to finish it is connect the dots to the end. At the same time, I think if I had to think about what to write, I would trash it. Or start over. I realize, too, that I’m being completely crazy, shelving all my crap and over-analyzing everything, but it is what it is.

What I learned this month in writing:
1* The last time I wrote without an outline,ย I also didn’t have a plan. Naturally, I blamed not having an outline on that story being crap when I finished. Live and learn. This time I have a plan, albeit a loose one. But a plan is a plan! ^_^

2* It doesn’t matter what anyone else is doing or thinks about what I’m doing. All that matters is that I keep writing andย keep moving forward.

3* It seems I need a constant reminder that’s it’s okay not to write everyday. I don’t mind. ๐Ÿ™‚

What distracted me this month while writing:
Nothing, really. I decided that it was a good idea to get up before the crack of dawn so I have time to write before work. I’ve done this before, but I stopped after I finished the story. This time I want to keep it as my new schedule, period. It frees up my evenings, and I love it, but the adjustment has been…an adjustment. My body has been on nights for a very long time, but it’s been a lot easier to get out of bed in the morning than I thought it would be. Going to bed before midnight has been the hardest. But you know, these things take time!

Goal for next month:
Not making any goals. I just want to keep writing and stop freaking out. ๐Ÿ™‚

Last 200 words:
Skipping. I’m rather a mother bear over this story right now.

18 Responses to #WIPMarathon Report #16 (May)

  1. Happy belated (?) birthday! I’m glad you’re encouraged with this new project–I hope you won’t shelve everything ever, though! ;-; Maybe just for now. Glad the new writing/sleeping schedule is working for you!

  2. I sometimes figure out how to rework old ideas by combining them with new ones. Strange how that happens!

    Sometimes temporarily shelving projects can help. The one I’m working on was shelved for almost a year and it’s nowhere near as bad as I remember. We writers can be our own worst critics sometimes!

    Good luck with your new WIP! ๐Ÿ™‚

    • We can definitely be our own worst critics! This is my first time figuring out how this whole rewriting stories from scratch thing goes. It’s a whole lot better than I thought it would be. Kind of makes me wish I’d try this sooner!

  3. Combing two story ideas can bring amazing results – kind of like a mad scientist mixing to explosive chemicals. Yeah, it’s early morning and I’m not quite awake ๐Ÿ˜‰ Honestly, though, I think that’s a great idea. And you’re right; we can’t compare ourselves to others. Then we get really depressed, and we shouldn’t. Can’t wait for your next update!

    • Yes! Mad scientist! It’s perfect! ^_^ I’ve never quite tried to mix anything quite like this before, so it’s be super inspiring. It’s really hard not to spy on what other people doing, but I can only do what I can do. And I can’t wait to do another update! ๐Ÿ˜€

  4. May babies!! *high fives*

    I think we’ve all felt that self-doubt to a greater or lesser extent. I definitely get the new story jitters too. I’m glad you’re not putting pressure on yourself and going with ‘just keep writing’ – sometimes that’s all it takes to get our of a slump.

    Wishing you all the best for writerly things in June! ๐Ÿ™‚

    • *high fives* ๐Ÿ˜€
      Seems to be! I was hoping taking a low pressure would make me more productive (no pressure – Lol!), but so far it is! I think I’ve written more in the last 3 weeks than I’ve written all year!

  5. First of all, please stop belating yourself and over-analyzing everything. Your works are awesome! I’m so guilty about belating and over-analyzing too, so I’m talking to myself as well ๐Ÿ˜‰ I guess you already know what to do but my one-cent advice would be to at least complete what you started! If you decide to shelve it for a while, at least you completed it. But if you’re not passionate about it, or the thought of you writing Phantom Silence is dreadful, then go ahead with something new.

    I’m so etching this to my forehead: “It doesnโ€™t matter what anyone else is doing or thinks about what Iโ€™m doing. All that matters is that I keep writing and keep moving forward.”

    P.S: So much hugs. I can relate to what you’re going through. I’m freaking out every 23 seconds about my upcoming exams.

    Happy writing next month!

    • Thank you so much! ^_^ I don’t feel awesome, but I am crazy sometimes. I’m keeping “Phantom Silence” pulled up. I’m thinking maybe I can work on it some in between projects to give me something creative to do and to keep me from dedicating my writing time to Youtube. Ha. There won’t be any pressure at all if I just keep it around as a fun project. And who knows, maybe it’s better than I’m thinking it is.

      Totally etch it into your forehead! I need to etch it in mine as well. ๐Ÿ™‚

      All the best on your upcoming exams! HUGS!

  6. “It doesnโ€™t matter what anyone else is doing or thinks about what Iโ€™m doing. All that matters is that I keep writing and keep moving forward.”

    AMEN!

    And it’s totally okay not to write everyday. I don’t and I used to struggle with not writing every day but it’s like… it’s just easier to write when you’re inspired to do so, lol. Keep your chin up! Self-doubt is super mean and relentless. Tell it to shove off and keep moving! I’m right there with you and I’ve got your back! Hit me up for writing sprints if you want ๐Ÿ™‚

    HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!

    • ^_^ Right, I feel like I right a lot of crap when I force things, and there’s just no reason to do that! I totally need to try some sprints in the morning! It takes me 30 minutes to get started sometimes. >.<

      Thanks! ๐Ÿ˜€

  7. Yay, hope you had a fabulous birthday (and month!) I so agree with your #2 there. I had to remind myself of this just this week when I was having a mini-meltdown. Write what you love and stick with it!

    That’s great that you’ve been able to be an early riser to get work done. I was doing surprisingly well with this (for me, anyhow) until I caught a cold that’s mutated once already, and somehow when I’m sick I feel like I need to sleep extra long to get over it… which means my body has now quickly reverted back to form! I hope you keep it up as long as it’s working for you, but yes, totally do NOT need to write every day. Those days off are for your subconscious putting all the ideas together (and taking breaks!) ๐Ÿ™‚

    • I did! Thanks! ^_^ I think it’s okay to sleep all day when you have a cold. You can always get back on schedule when you’re well again. ๐Ÿ™‚

      And that is so totally true! My brain can’t think and work things out if I’m taxing it all the time. I hope the cold is gone soon! It really is amazing how we can come down with a cold all year round.

Hi! ^_^