WIPMarathon Report #1

Soo…I tried to chicken out. But I guess it’s okay to admit the sad state of my affairs. I’m in the middle of dealing with some issues I have with my writing. They happen to be issues I run into a lot…so much so that 100% of the time, my stories have at least one of these problems: character issues, too much going on, or components that either don’t fit or just plum don’t need to be there. 100% of the time. I’m not even kidding and honestly it’s freaking me out.

Last report wordcount + chapter count:
55,058, Chapter 18 (Chains of Destiny)

Current report WC + CC:
I have words. On a few projects actually, but nothing to be excited about. I wrote a new chapter for a project I started last year and it sucks. And I have two paragraphs on something else, and they also suck. And I have a character for a new story that may or may not be trying to lead me into some kind pot hole and will only talk to me if I promise not to try and outline this story. Then another character got jealous and didn’t want me to outline her story, but I kind of have to because it’s the only way I’ll be able to write it. So I just now, like as of two days ago, got her to agree to the outline again. passes out

WIP Issues This Month:
Chains of Destinyย is half on hold right now. I talked about it a bit HERE. In a nutshell, we’re struggling a bit right now. I’m okay with that as answers tend to come with time, but I am super bored right now. I’ve gotten so used to writing all the time (blessings!! ^_^) that not writing has left me with an unproductive feeling that never goes away no matter how much reading and cleaning and catching up I do.

Four things I learned this month in writing:
Four! Hmm…
1* It’s okay to put a story on hold and work on something else for a while.

2* I can’t do any kind of rules. It’s just not going to happen. (*in Scottish accent: “You can take our lives, but you can never take our FREEEDOOOOM!” Lol!)

3* Making lists is dangerous. That’s how I found out about my issues (which were later confirmed by my sister just yesterday). I started out by watching a bunch of mediocre movies because like I said, I’ve been SUPER bored. I decided to make a list of everything I liked and didn’t like about these movies (because…boredom). Then I decided to make a list of everything I liked and didn’t like about the novels I’ve written (minus the first one). Then I compiled these lists into a master lists of general likes and dislikes. Then I pulled my strengths and weaknesses out of this list.

Now I was pretty hard on myself, perhaps too hard, and my strengths lists is longer than my weaknesses lists, HOWever, my weaknesses are pretty bad.

4* You really find out how much time you truly have on your hands when you have nothing to do.

What distracted me this month while writing:
I had a lot of distractions. My hot water heater decided to play out on me, Olympic figure skating and snowboarding, reading (though books are always excusable ^_^), but the biggest distraction has been the realization of the above writerly issues. I have literally spent the entire last week going back and forth between feeling like I can write anything and feeling like I should quit.

Goal for next month:
I would like to get my crap together. This month was a little rough on the old brain. I’m really surprised I wrote anything at all. So I would like to make some progress. Wondrous progress. On something. Anything. I don’t care, but hopefully a couple of things.

Last 200 words:
Everything I have is a mess. Maybe I’m being too hard on myself. Maybe I just don’t need to write on fumes. But it’s awful, so awful…dramatic crying fest

It’s okay. I’ll be the bad egg this check-in. ^_^

20 Responses to WIPMarathon Report #1

  1. Everyone goes through this. Even best-selling writers go through self-doubt and feeling like they’re not good enough.

    I think, actually, what you’re doing with the lists and the movies is a GOOD thing. Don’t be too hard on yourself, but where you see you can improve, find ways to improve. It’s just too much, sometimes, when you try to do everything at once. Pick something to work on and make it a priority for yourself.

    I also don’t think it’s a bad idea to shelve something and try something else. I know we have to work through that “finishing” stage for projects, but if the joy is getting sucked out of the process, it’s time to try a different approach. You never know what’s going to resonate. Try all angles and keep yourself motivated.

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    • Thanks. ๐Ÿ™‚ It’s hard to imagine someone like Stephen King going through a period of doubt though, but as much as he’s written, it’s had to have happened at some point. I think this will turn out to be a good thing when I’m drafting again. One thing I always say to people is that you can’t fix the problems if you don’t know they’re there.

  2. Happens to all of us, Krystal! Take a break. Write a short story, something totally insane. I’m on page 12 of this new draft and while I’m excited for parts of it (I think the writing is stronger than in draft 3), I’m also worried about whether or not I’m properly inside of my MC’s head, you know? #writerproblems

    • I like the something totally insane. ^_^
      #writerproblems indeed! I know what you mean, I go through that a lot when I have more than one POV. Sometimes I get so wrapped up in telling the story I’m afraid I’m forgetting about some of the other stuff.

  3. Aww. ๐Ÿ™ I totally sympathise with not being able to settle to anything when not writing. Hope you manage to think of a solution! Sometimes the best thing to do is just to put the project aside, and the answers will come when you least expect them to!

    As for writing weaknesses, it can be hard to accept, but I’ve found that once I’m aware of a weakness, it helps me avoid falling into the same trap when I’m planning and writing other stories.

    Hope you find something you want to work on soon! ๐Ÿ™‚

    • Thank you. ๐Ÿ™‚ I hope that is what comes out of this: that I stop making these same mistakes over and over again. I used to rush all my stories. I couldn’t crack 45k for anything. I did get over that hump, so there’s hope.

  4. Do not give up!! We believe in you!

    And I have BEEN there. I have TWO 50,000+ word projects and one 15,000-ish word project unfinished. All 3 because I tried to write something a little different than I was used to. All 3 because I started feeling like they sucked. I wanted to at least finish a first draft and fix them later, but I can’t even muster the enthusiasm for that. I don’t consider them trunked–I won’t give up forever–but on a long-term hiatus.

    If it means you have to take a short break, brainstorm and start an entirely new project before someday (maybe!) going back to fix it, you can do that. But don’t let those bad feelings get you down. ๐Ÿ™

    • Thank you. ๐Ÿ™‚ I hate taking writing breaks, but I know they’re necessary. I hate not finishing stuff, too, but that is also necessary sometimes. The good thing about all this is that I know without doubt that I want to write more than anything. I know finding issues doesn’t mean you suck, but it really feels like that right now, you know. I hate it.

  5. Aww no, please don’t cry. It’s okay to feel our writing sucks sometimes, the most important thing is forcing yourself up everyday and getting to do that thing you want to do. To be honest, quitting my WIP did cross my mind last month, not because I didn’t know what to write but I was tired of it. Like I felt all the words I already spent writing it would equal a second draft plus half of a third draft and I was generally tired.
    But there’s a satisfaction that comes with completing anything we start, so hang in there.

    I’m sure you’d be the best egg by the time the next check-in swings by! ๐Ÿ˜‰

    Much, much love. And hugs.

    • Thanks. ^_^
      I’m actually a big fan of force. Sometimes it’s the only way. If I was tired I’d just take a break, but I really, really want to be writing right now, you know. Though I totally understand getting tired of something. I’m glad you’re still working on your story.:)

  6. I’m sorry to hear you’re going through a rough writing patch. I’m a chronic list-maker, and I agree: lists can be dangerous, which is irritating because the whole reason I make lists is so that my brain will stop obsessing over things!

    The whole paragraph in which you proclaimed everything you wrote sucks had me laughing because of the way you talk about your characters leading you into pot holes and getting jealous and such, so I don’t want to hear it that ALL your writing sucked, lady. I don’t believe it for a second. But I do believe that you believe it because I do the same exact thing. SO how about we both stop believing in those things? Oh man, I need to just go to bed and not comment on any more blogs when I’m half-asleep rambling… But I hope I made my point. *angel smiley*

    I hope March is awesome for you!

    • Thank you. Thatโ€™s so true about the lists, right! I did it for my brain and yeahโ€ฆnot better. Lol! My characters crack me up about as much as they drive me crazy, but I love them. ^_^

      I agree. Instead of saying everything sucks (as much as I believe it!), why donโ€™t I try, โ€œThis could be better?โ€ ๐Ÿ™‚ Thatโ€™s better, I think.Itโ€™s so funny because when itโ€™s someone else, Iโ€™m always, โ€œDonโ€™t say that!โ€ But when itโ€™s me, itโ€™s like I give myself a pass. No passes for us. ๐Ÿ™‚

  7. Taking a break can really help with times like this. Going back to writing short pieces or for real fun can help to motivate. Good luck with it all ๐Ÿ™‚

  8. Awwwww Krystal, I am so sorry that I am chuckling at this right now! It was just so refreshing and honest. And your characters all squabbling with you just had me laughing out loud. For someone who is currently in such a creative rut, you sure have no problem expressing it on your blog!

    That being said, HANG IN THERE. I had such bad writer’s block last month that I was starting to hold a grudge against my keyboard and I swore the blinking cursor’s only objective in life was to taunt me. But I DID get passed it, and so will you. It sounds like you have all these ideas swimming around in your head, but with all of them competing against each other, you don’t know which to give your attention to, so you throw your hands in the air and write lists instead (haha). Maybe make the topic of your next list “What I need to accomplish in my WIPs” and prioritize everything. Then just start with the one on top. I don’t know, maybe that’s easier said than done, but that’s all I’ve got. Well, that and “drink a beer,” but I don’t know if you’re the beer-drinking type. ๐Ÿ˜‰

    • Thank you! ๐Ÿ™‚ WIP Lists! I like it! ^_^ It might help me settle on one, too. Plus I really like making lists. Lol! That’s a really accurate summary of the chaos in my head. ๐Ÿ™‚ Those people are half running me up the wall sometimes, but it is kind of hilarious to me. I was so sure everyone was getting along. I knew it wasn’t going to last.

Hi! ^_^