Soo…I tried to chicken out. But I guess it’s okay to admit the sad state of my affairs. I’m in the middle of dealing with some issues I have with my writing. They happen to be issues I run into a lot…so much so that 100% of the time, my stories have at least one of these problems: character issues, too much going on, or components that either don’t fit or just plum don’t need to be there. 100% of the time. I’m not even kidding and honestly it’s freaking me out.
Last report wordcount + chapter count:
55,058, Chapter 18 (Chains of Destiny)
Current report WC + CC:
I have words. On a few projects actually, but nothing to be excited about. I wrote a new chapter for a project I started last year and it sucks. And I have two paragraphs on something else, and they also suck. And I have a character for a new story that may or may not be trying to lead me into some kind pot hole and will only talk to me if I promise not to try and outline this story. Then another character got jealous and didn’t want me to outline her story, but I kind of have to because it’s the only way I’ll be able to write it. So I just now, like as of two days ago, got her to agree to the outline again. passes out
WIP Issues This Month:
Chains of Destiny is half on hold right now. I talked about it a bit HERE. In a nutshell, we’re struggling a bit right now. I’m okay with that as answers tend to come with time, but I am super bored right now. I’ve gotten so used to writing all the time (blessings!! ^_^) that not writing has left me with an unproductive feeling that never goes away no matter how much reading and cleaning and catching up I do.
Four things I learned this month in writing:
1* It’s okay to put a story on hold and work on something else for a while.
2* I can’t do any kind of rules. It’s just not going to happen. (*in Scottish accent: “You can take our lives, but you can never take our FREEEDOOOOM!” Lol!)
3* Making lists is dangerous. That’s how I found out about my issues (which were later confirmed by my sister just yesterday). I started out by watching a bunch of mediocre movies because like I said, I’ve been SUPER bored. I decided to make a list of everything I liked and didn’t like about these movies (because…boredom). Then I decided to make a list of everything I liked and didn’t like about the novels I’ve written (minus the first one). Then I compiled these lists into a master lists of general likes and dislikes. Then I pulled my strengths and weaknesses out of this list.
Now I was pretty hard on myself, perhaps too hard, and my strengths lists is longer than my weaknesses lists, HOWever, my weaknesses are pretty bad.
4* You really find out how much time you truly have on your hands when you have nothing to do.
What distracted me this month while writing:
I had a lot of distractions. My hot water heater decided to play out on me, Olympic figure skating and snowboarding, reading (though books are always excusable ^_^), but the biggest distraction has been the realization of the above writerly issues. I have literally spent the entire last week going back and forth between feeling like I can write anything and feeling like I should quit.
Goal for next month:
I would like to get my crap together. This month was a little rough on the old brain. I’m really surprised I wrote anything at all. So I would like to make some progress. Wondrous progress. On something. Anything. I don’t care, but hopefully a couple of things.
Last 200 words:
Everything I have is a mess. Maybe I’m being too hard on myself. Maybe I just don’t need to write on fumes. But it’s awful, so awful…dramatic crying fest
It’s okay. I’ll be the bad egg this check-in. ^_^