I was so glad when Eames (Tom Hardy) pointed that out in Inception, because I was thinking the same exact thing. Only why stop at just a bigger gun? Why not get a grenade launcher? And, dudes, if you haven’t seen this movie. It’s AWESOME. Go watch it NOW. 🙂
It’s no big secret that I’m an avid vampire fan. In fact, up until last August, I had only written one novel-length story (that’s right, just one) in the last 11 years that didn’t have a vampire in it. That’s just crazy. But while on the subject, I have often beat myself up for my last vampire story. The reasons were numerous, but to name a few: There were four books (i.e. too many for me to handle), I would have to change the main POV halfway through, I had about three separate backstories to get in there somehow, and the genre is in no-man’s land. The biggest reason I beat myself up however was because I had completely overwhelmed myself and fell apart.
Now, I had a decision to make. I could force it. Or I could set it aside for however long it took me to calm down. And I LOVE those people. You have no idea. They take up at least half of my Top 16 Favorite Characters list. Some of them have been with me since high school. But after the dust settled, I was relieved to not have to tackle the mess I created. I felt terrible about letting my characters down, and I wanted to do this for them and for myself, but at the time, I couldn’t handle it. It’s strange, because in all my years of writing novels, I’ve never completed a sequel. Never. And not out of fear, which is the worst of it. I haven’t done it because I would get partially through the sequel and realize book number one sucked.
But this time I didn’t have that problem. This time book number one is awesome (with the exception of a few sentences in one scene that I will fix if I ever get back to it). smile And I looked at the rest of series paralyzed, thinking, “I dreamed too big, now I can’t handle it, what am I going to do?”
So my next story was simpler. Maybe too simple and I ended up having to rewrite it. (Quite a few times, in fact.) But that’s the trouble you get in when you’re afraid. I was afraid to write a book that didn’t have a vampire in it. And then I was afraid to dream big again.
And I still am. But that’s okay. Because I’m not letting it stop me.
I realized a little while ago that Petra’s story (yay Petra!) has this huge subplot in it that was going to spawn into the main plot when I finally got out of its way. Now, I knew this subplot had the potential of taking over early on, like a year ago, nearly at conception, but me being me, I ignored it and was determined to glaze over it as much as possible. Hey, I have my reasons. There are a lot of elements in this story that I’m simply just not used to dealing with, so I spent a lot of time trying to tone those elements down. Then I had a scene where the Petra is talking to her father and he’s going off on a tangent. I was like, “Man, that’s so awesome. He’s so intense, I LOVE him!” Then I slept well and woke up the next day thinking, “Oh, crap…I’m going to have to address the issues that came up in that conversation.”
Now I would like to cut the conversation. Lol! It would certainly make my life easier, but it’s SO good. I can’t cut something that good when it’s making the story better! I’m like Arthur (Joseph Gordon-Levitt) in Inception. I go with what I’m used to and what’s comfortable instead of pulling out a bigger gun. (Or a grenade launcher. ^_^)
So I did the research I needed to do so the story could go off on it’s craziness. I knew it would be crazy when I started. I’m mixing sci-fi and fantasy elements (and I’ve never done sci-fi) and honestly, the concept is ridiculous. But I’m going to do it anyway. Because it sounds like fun. Still, I tried not to dream too big and it happened anyway.
Isn’t it nice when your subconscious pulls tricks on you?
But you know what? Every single crazy, large project I take on, is going to make me a better, more confident, writer. So I say, Dream on, Bring it on. ^_^