WIPMarathon Check-In #2 (December/January)

Time for another check-in! A list of other participant’s check-ins can be found HERE.

Last Word Count + Chapter Count:
Chapter 17, around 53k.

Current WC + CC:
In the middle of Chapter 10 and 60,565 words. So, around 7k written this past week and I have to say I’m happily surprised.

WIP Issues this week:
Just the self-doubt monster. Every other day I hate the entire thing. It’s been really hard to keep going. I don’t know if it’s because the cold weather has me tired all the time or if I’m legitimately freaking out, but I’m just taking it one day and one sentence at a time. And when I get to where I want to trash it, I play out the last few (or next) scenes in my head, and that helps me remember why I started this story in the first place. Get ready to have your mind blown: it’s because I wanted to.

What I learned this week in writing:
I’m never going to get through an entire story without freaking out about it at some point. Tuesday, I told my brother I wanted to quit because I hated this story and just want to write something else, and he goes, “Why do you always do this? Why do you always get close to the end and want to quit? Just finish the story.” And I thought, “I always do this?” And you know what: I do. I’m kind of relieved actually, because that means it’s okay to finish this story. Freaking out is a normal part of the process! I forget this, you know. ^_^

What distracted me this week while writing:
Trying to figure out why my internet cuts off sometimes and then trying to remedy the situation as quickly and as inexpensively as possible. Turns out, directly on top of the refrigerator is not a good place to put your router. I didn’t have much of a choice as the only options for my DSL were in the kitchen (the thingie is right beside the stove! Who puts a phone right by their stove!) or underneath my bed, and I was not having wireless signals running through my bed at night, so the kitchen it was. Through some creative maneuvering on my part and the aid of a plastic cord wrap thingie, I was able to get the router and DSL modem on top of the cabinet in the kitchen without making a mess. (Though my dust allergies have flared up.) I can’t say the issue is rectified, but I’ve had no issues in the last two hours so fingers crossed. ^_^

Last 200 words:
More mess. I’m editing my last few chapter right now. I just wanted to get writing again so I barreled though them. Therefore, the words are a right mess again this week. I was going to post them anyway, but then I looked at them. Ha! So I’m going to cheat. πŸ™‚ Here’s the last few sentences of Ch.15, since I’m currently tweaking Chapters 16-20.

I stare at him lying there unconscious and helpless. I keep waiting to feel something. Fear for his safety, his life. I feel nothing. The back of his hand is a mess of charred skin. If they ask, I’ll just tell them he burned himself on the stove.Β 

Anywho, looks like this week was a whole lot better! The urge to hibernate has not really abated, but I only have six chapters left to draft! I will finish this story by year’s end!! Tally ho! ^_^

14 Responses to WIPMarathon Check-In #2 (December/January)

  1. Self-doubt is a problem for most writers. Glad you pushed through it! Once you get to the end and take a step back to see the whole picture, I’m sure you’ll feel much better about it. That’s what happens for me at least. While immersed in writing I tend to lose sight of the story as a whole somehow.

    Nice excerpt – really tense and then the almost nonchalant comment about the stove. I sense some black humour here and I like it πŸ™‚

    • Thank you. ^_^
      I usually do feel better about things once I’ve gotten away from them. It’s amazing how I always, always forget these things.

      I’m definitely a fan if dark humor. πŸ™‚

  2. The self-doubt monster is evil! I just about managed to defeat it this week and finish my draft, and this is after weeks of freaking out about how awful it is! But that’s totally normal, and I’m glad I didn’t give up. Glad you managed to make progress! πŸ™‚

  3. I agree with Suzanne! The last sentence of your excerpt gave me a double-take!!
    And OMG, what your brother asked you was the exact question my sister asked several years ago.
    It’s okay to want to give it up, it comes a lot of the time, but as long as you have your Determination Cloak on, you’d remain invincible to that monster!

    Good luck next week!

  4. Sounds like, thanks to your brother, you gained some helpful self knowledge this week. I’m still drowning in freelance work and I wonder if I’ll ever start a new book. Hoping to very soon.

Hi! ^_^